GOD YOU REALLY REALLY LOVE ME

Today just get back our resault result for SA2 ,honestly speaking i did not do well for certain subject.my history even chinese,maths another heart hurting subject.Long time ago ,i had a message got into my mind;was me not suitable for maths,was my brain really same and rusting?THe question follows until this morning when i was getting my science result.i scored a A1 76 although it was not the highest in our class and level but rememeber that there will be a lot of people in the world who are stronger then you.But from this result i was quite touched as i did really feel hopeless and i am such a disobey person and my character is like that,but GOD never SAY HE IS GOING TO GIVE UP ON ME AND JUST LET ME DO WHATEVER THING I WANT,INSTEAD OF PUNISHING ME FOR ALL THE SINS WHICH I HAVE DONE AND HURT HIS HEART,HE SHOW HIS NEARNESS TO ME.I donot dare to think and ask for good result because i knew it is too late for me to study,however i had a last hope,pass my english and taking pure science and A-math next year.For math i did not score so well as this was truth as i did not put in such effort and God want to me learn something which is that how much to put in how many u will get.Really,i still remeber clearly that at starting of this year i told myself that maths is a subject without study i still can score a A1,but God show me it was wong,i think he wants to be a man with a heart to study to learn ,to take up the challeges and deal with difficulties with him,build us my faith and get me prepared.I AM really stupid enough by not seeing all these things.until recently i started to reading the purpose of driven life,i just shocked when i reading and it isa really true,GOd is preparing you for his plan and i am just a selfish guy who jsut wan to fullfill my own hope.
before exam i knew i can not deal it with my power and it is not possible to do it with GOD.for maths i jsut want to try my best although i got a very lousy grade but praise the GOD because without him i will become worst.and this time i put all my hope science.on that day was really a day of rushing and difficulties and i managed to do it and the strenghth bless by the God,i score a A1 which i never scored be4 in my life.i was creazy over my result and i cried (of course nv cried so loudly).it is a very touching moment as i knew i did not study well but i spent days be prepared and really i can say that is a last minuts study.i pray and cried many time before and i know i am in his plan and there is a purpose to creat me in his kingdom and he is going to use me soon .praise him really .he is such a lovely god SPENT TIME WITH ME DURING MY LIFE AND MOST SAD AND HAPPY TIME.My mood is really so difficult to be return down as words.lots miracles he had done for me during exam :like my english,i pray for it and end up for my compo and letter resulting,but i jsut make a terrible mistake and i cried after eng exam.and i was on the taxi to HCl ,once i was sitting on the seats a chinese come to my mind(上帝的恩典够我用)i am really impressed feeling the GOd is with me)
GOD,MY FATHER,I AM HOW HURT YOU SO MUCH BUT YOU STILL LOVE ME AND HELP ME,GOD I PRAISING you and i want to be with you and serve you love you with all i can .GOD I LOVE YOU GOD,GOR YOUR FORGIVENESS AND LOVE ,GOD I PRAY THAT I WANT TO TAKE PURE SCIENCE AND A MATHS ,SO BLSS ME THAT MY MATHS TEACEHR WILL ALOUD ME .PRAY IN JESUS NAME AMEN